WHAT'S WRONG?

i was doing fine yesterday, really fine that im proud of myself

there's notes everywhere, remind me how much i hate him...

i was doing fine...

but when i come across a pict, my heart's pumping rapidly, that makes me suffocate, i can't breathe easy, my face turn red, and my heart is aching..

i grabbed hard on my shirt, so hard that i believe i can rip it off

i try to calm down, i take a deep breath, and let it out heavily... i wish all the pain will go away with it.... but, it's not that simple

what's wrong with me?

a song that remind me of him keeps playing in my mind..

over and over again like a stucked cd player..

how can i turn it off, when i dont know where's the plug is?

this is hard... why is this so hard?

IM HURT