REGRETS

*why having such a negative title for your blog Nurul Ain? don't create a controversial post ,will ya?*

xxHello~ Salam Maulidur Rasul ya ;)xx

REGRETS? hurrm.. bukan nye ape.. just, i'm sure, everybody have their regrets in their live, right? but then.. after a while, they think, they are okay with it.. they can live without it.. but deep inside, they really wish they could undo the things they've done.

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN, i supposed ;)

hurm..one of my greatest regret is my STUPIDITY.

woe woe! relaxx! i'm not cursing myself, but it is! haha.. because of my STUPIDITY, i got my regrets here.

1- Someone crash my dad's car while i'm inside. Alone. at the back seat. (scary huh?)

here's the story, my dad fetch me out of school, and drove to the nearest gas station, Petronas, my dad wanna buy something (i forgot what is it) then he parked behind a car, Black Proton Wira,

With me, alone in the car, at the back seat, near the left side window.

Suddenly, the car i'm in is shaking. and i think my brain too. I got tense in my head, and i looked around, the proton wira car, just knocked my dad's Volvo on the exact passenger door where i sit. I looked at the person went out of his car, and check out his car, and my dad's car. I LOOKED AT HIM. he is someone with a his work's uniform, maybe like a techinician, because he had his name sewed on his upper left pocket, his name is... something with an A, D, and N, maybe, i don't remember, my head kinda spinning..

you know what's my regret is? I DO NOTHING. I DIDNT TELL MY DAD THAT SOMEONE KNOCKED HIS CAR'S BACK DOOR, i just sit there, until my dad's come and move away from the proton wira car.

ACTUALLY, i did tell my dad, but not at the right time to tell, OK OK, in my defence, i thought that it was my dad's fault to park behind someone else's car, where there isn't a parking squared, so i guess, my dad is the one that should take responsible, hurm.. STUPID right?

again again, IN MY DEFENCE, my head kinda spinning, and i dont know what to do, IN FACT, i've never been in such situasion, so, i just don't know what to do. FAIR ENOUGH?

My dad's PISSED OFF! and i feel stupid and WISH, REALLY WISH that i could have done better. I could have went out of the car, check the car, and show it to my dad, before my dad drove away from the Petronas,

I didn't eat that day, I cry myself out, in my bedroom, all i can say is :

"I DIDN'T KNOW!"

repeatedly.

every time i come across this thought, i will say to myself, either "SHIBAL!" or "SHIT!"

One of the things about regret is, it makes you wanna turn back time, and do it differently. SO, if i could turn back time, what will i do, DIFFERENTLY?

well, the answer is, like i said, I could have went out of the car, check the car, and show it to my dad, before my dad drove away from the Petronas, and make that person pay for what he has done, yeah coz it's his fault. he should check the back mirror before reversing his car. Stupid that man!

OH, I WISH!

The good thing about regrets is, that you take extra precaussion in everything you do, you tell yourself that if things like this happen in the future time, you could have do it right. And you WISH that it would never be anything like is anymore. PREVENTING IS BETTER THAT CURE.

huu.. i got a lot of regrets to tell, but, maybe sometime later. If it helps you to stand upon your regrets, you can try posting one too. It helps you, a LIL.

meet me in the next post ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ASH! :P

You're 19 Already!!

wakaka... semoga tabah hidop dinegare org
celebrate birthday ngan org umah ye..
semoga study kat sane going smoothly..
doa banyak2.. doakan aku sekali..

LOVE YOU ALWAYS~

HERE WE GO AGAIN..

Dear Apple,

i'm putting my hands down, i surrender.i gave up.

IM DONE. I'VE HAD ENOUGH.

the 1st time you did this to me, is unacceptable, i tend not to make it a big deal, i thought, i was too dumb to believe in you, or you really innocent of making that joke on me.

for the 1st time, i feel disappointed of you.

but then, i try to be cool about it, "Just forget about it" i said. but when i'm about to forgive you, you did it for the second time, and this time, IT GOT WORSE.

i never expect that you're just joking about it, when i really need a help, i thought that you are a hero, that can save me it the nick of time, i NEARLY fallen to your false security invitation. you broke my heart ever since, that by the time that happen, i promise myself that, i never text you, call you, or find you. I JUST WANT IT ALL ENDS. so, i make my heart suffer, by hating you.

Things are going very easy for me, since, i have something to remind me how much i hate you, how much you hurt my heart, and broke my trust on you, my plans starting to go well, and i'm starting to be okay about it. I'M SO OKAY about it. Although, the very first week of that happened, i'm not that okay. i thought that everything about you, is so hard to let it go, it is such a nice memory i ever got in my life. You WERE such an adventure to me.

HUH! just about i began to stop keeping touch with you, stop all the messages, calls, [ that i used to spend a lot of money on you ] or sharing pictures.. you came on to me, UNEXPECTEDLY, coz, that is SO NOT YOU, you never start SMSing me first, you never reply me not that much of story to tell, you never apologized if you ever late replying my msg.

hurm... then i tought, you feel that you're losing me.

SHIT, by the time i think about that, it makes me feel, HEAD OVER HEELS in love again, i feel that, i am something to you.. i have a TITLE in your heart.. i thought that i am your SOMEBODY.

so.. FOOLISH me, i got clingy over you, AGAIN. Trust me, honey, you're irresistible for me.

BUT...i don't go that road too far, i tell myself, that i wont fall deep inside it again. SO, I DID. i feel strong, i act towards you, DIFFERENTLY. I go harsh on you. I ends all the texts you started. I used all the words you used to use it on me, where i dont really like it that much. I rarely text you, or sometimes, i don't reply to your text. I GO STRONG.

about weeks this mission going well, and i'm not feeling dizzy or squishy over my stomach when i think about you, in a second, i can swipe you away from my mind, and got busy.

HOWEVER... i dont know how you do that.. or what has got into you. I see you go clingy on me. You started you call me HONEY, SAYANG and ask me if i want to sing COUPLE with you, when in the previous time, you are so ANTI about it. How many times i joke around with you, calling you such names, you go reflected over it. You draw a line to me that, FRIENDS are JUST FRIENDS.

By that time again, i act strong on the outside.. sayings all the bad things through my lips, commented about you're calling me honey, sayang.. but in the inside? no one knows. i go dilemma, i can't decide, if i want to go on the mission, or drop it off, and go back to you.

I STOP THERE, do nothing. follow with the flow. STOP THINKING.

Next Part is :

YOU ASK ME OUT. you ask me eagerly, that you wanna go out with me, and it will be your treat. NICE.

and i go, WOW! but.. i dont expect too much, and i even expect that you will BLEW ME OFF for the 3rd time.

but deep inside me, hoping that you are really change, coz you're really eager about it. i'm so touched.

HERE WE GO AGAIN. YOU BLEW ME OFF, with no text on that day, no calls, nothing. you say nothing, i bet you're forgot. But how can someone ask some other person out, and forget about it? yeah, you're right, MEN are like that.

[ hey hey, i'm not some girl who go chauvinist about men. but he is a man, and guys out there should be mad at this guy of letting down your reputations. :) ]

and you never remember about it, and i never remind you about it. so yeah, you're innocent.. SO INNOCENT. i feel like, that i'm the one who go eager over you now, i'm the one who remember that you ask me out, i'm the one who go excited about it. HOW THE HELL DID YOU DO THAT?

YOU GOT ME CLINGING BACK TO YOU!

me and friends got our heads together, to play it on you, REVENGE TIME. so we plan a small one, [hey, i'm not heartless] I ask you to do something for me, i guess you're fallen into it.. but my aura is not that strong to cast a spell on you, YOU REJECTED MY REQUEST JUST LIKE THAT. you think you're a man, so you can told me off?

i thought i got you in my trap, but, i'm trapped! i ask you to go down and met me, you took so long to answer, i bet you're getting ready, but then.. i waited for so long.. that i'm about to move on.. and let you search for me.. as if i'm pranking you that way. but then.. you call me, and you're still in your room, not getting ready, just, do nothing. OH MY. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU. YOU'RE MEAN. you never know how much you hurt this heart.. without ever knowing it.

That's it.. THAT'S the 4-times things that i never forget.

At one point, i'm thinking about getting a huge revenge on you. I wanna do the same to you. I want you to feel how i feel. but.. i guess you just don't get it, or you feel nothing. coz you're that IGNORANT. So, i drop the case. Maybe next time, i go back on track. BEWARE.

P/S: Need to remind you that, you're messing with the wrong person here.

With Love:

The girl you've hurt.

EXAM OH FIM~!

aku wrote facebook message to Asiah Rosedi.. :

''waaaaaa....T____T

exam tadi sucks!!!!

bukan aku yg suck, tapi tak sistematic langsong!

ade ke patot, awal2 aku sampai kat venue tuh, tade rupe mcm tmpt org yg nak exam pon, aku call bro kazzman, dy tatau gak, dy suh check kat irkhs department, takot ade change of venue, aku tak pegi ah, takot2, kang exam start, aku ntah ke mane,

lame gak tggu, dah kol 3+ dah, then ade ust dtg, change la venue, pegi cri tempat nak exam kat neh, amek je kelas ane2, then, dlm kol 3.07+ exam start,

TGK2! missing page, yg part essay plak tuh!

ok ok, tape, org tuh tgh usaha, nak dptkan page2 laen, then, agak mengambil mase yg lame ah, sampai dy pggel org laen dtg jage kitorang, then, dy pegi photostat, then, sesampai je die, yg kononnye amek mase 10 min pegi photostat tu, bagi2 kertas, dy ckp, "ok, tambah la mase, 10 min lagi"

and i thought, 10 min yg die tambah tuh, termasok ngan minit2 yg dy amek utk tggu org dtg jage, time die duk calling2 org sume2 tuh, and change of venue and sume2 tuh, tetibe, tgk2, mmg betol2 10 mins,

for 1 essay and 2 other true or false (with explanation) questions,

HOW AM I GONNA MAKE IT IN TIME??!

laen la yg org laen yg dah dpt kertas tuh, i mean , aku n the half of the class tadapat, tetibe, dpt extra mins dlm 10 - 15 mins. laen lah, kalo dy bg tahu dulu tajok essay tuh ape the whole exam time, ni, in 10 mins tu gak dpt tau tajok, and 10 min tu gak kene wat mind map, cari isi, n 10 mins tu gak kene wat essay, WTH?

aku tadapat nak kate ape2, memandangkan org dah sume, kalot2 bangun dr tempat masing2, anta kertas, aku pon, ikot je la skali, dgn bhagian essay, KOSONG

aku baru dpt idea yg bernas superb , bru nak jot, tapi, tak suson ayat lagi pon, tetibe ckp, TIME'S UP!

WTH?

aku tak sedih, but, TAK PUAS HATI AH!

da la bro salu pggel aku ayam, isk isk, :))))

nnt kang, result rendah, ntah hape dy nak pggel aku... !"

[the last part wasn't the motive, haha]

WOI SI PENDEK!

Happy Birthday My lil' Cutie Friend :)

Semoga dipanjangkan umor, dimurahkan rezeki..

I hope we'll be friends forever... PROMISE ME ;)

I LOVE YOU , muaaacckkxx!!

ABG KU KAWEN ;)

Selamat Pengantin Baru

*pengantin baru kene berjemor tgh panas, haha, payong macam unfunctioning la plak*

*a very nice shot! congrates!*

*mak aku yg pakai spek itam vogue tuh, haha, ni berjalan mengikot ketinggian ke? hahaha :D *

(photos credited to Hasifah Videl Kuchiki )

hoho, byk lagi gambr, ni pon aku curik dr kawan abg aku, tapi, ni just nak mengenalkan kakak ipar ku, Kak Mafakhira.

bestnye kawen ;)

BLACK & WHITE PHOTO CONTEST

and.. this is my entry :

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4.UR.EYES.ONLY

AN ANNOYING LIL SISTER

remember the time when i said i had a collection of notebooks that i bought just because of they're fancied and cute and cool, and i never wrote anything in there?

yeah, i ADORE those notebooks, but guess what, YURA took them and make them her own, AREN'T you PISSED OFF if you're me?

ok ok, say what you wanna say :

"come on, she's a kid, you don't wanna pick a fight with a kid,are you?"

"she's your sister, be nice"

all i heard is blah blah blah blah...!

i guess i can let her go with those notebooks that she drew all over the pages, i won't be taking them back, cause, they are like, hideous now, arrghhh..!

BUT! i saw her pasting my Johnny Depp's collection pictures inside the book, which make me more mad because i've been keeping those pictures for such a loooong time since i was 14! ARRRGGHH!

HELLO! it's JOHNNY DEPP we're talking about!

OH MY! why do i have such an annoying sister,eh?

yeah, you got that right, i said, SISTER.

why she have to bother all of my stuff? it's okay if those thing just lost somewhere else, or some place called The Lost Land or whatever, but it's not okay if SHE took it..

GREAT, now i sounded like a big sister who cry over the stuff that her lil sister took, SHIT! SCREW YOU! SCREW THEM ALL!

WHY DON'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME AND MY STUFF ALONE?

**don't get me wrong, i won't go and mess around with the kid's head, or punch her in the face or kick her in the ass, NO, i just, tired of those, HAHA, it's old skool, i just play nice with her, but make her suffer! MIAHAHAHAHA, again, NO, i just let it go, she's a kid, there's not much to do about, i got many things to take care of instead of her.. HAHA..

*** see, im not that evil ;)

DOUBLE TROUBLE : EP 1

A LONG TRIP TO HOME SWEET HOME :)

ehem2, marilah kita mulakan dgn bacaan Al-Fatihah, *bace lah, jgn tak bace plak*

panjang cerita nye, tapi kite pendekkan je lah, hehe, tapi aku sure takkan jadi pendek punye lah, HOHO.

dimulakan dgn, aku n mira rancang nak kuar sesame jumaat pagi 11th Dec, which is the day that we're going back home, mira will be boarding her bus at Putra, and mine will be at the CFSIIUM, yeah, aku beli tiket GATE, malas aku nak travel pegi putra angkot barang2, penat lah..

the plan is that, mira and i will go out together somewhere, mira wanted to buy a sweater to wear that night, she knew that she can't handle the cold in the bus, and, i supposely need to accompany her to the Putra station, and soon, i will be going back to the CFS alone, -- kinda sad though, but, it just a plan, things might change.

so, having the thought of going back alone, travelling in the public transport that -- i dont usually get used to,-- is a real challenging for me, so, i called amir, my x-secondary school mate, who live in Jalan Kuching which is closed to the Putra station, see if he can help me with anything, so that i wont go back alone, it's sounds scary you know.

then, after all the chat, seems like he can't help me with anything -- actually he can, A BIG YES he gave me if only he got the chance to use the car on that day, sadly, his sister need to use it, :( hehe, sounded really cool if he came and fetch us with his car though, hehe. BTW Amir, thanks for the thoughts!

next, i "try and error" Munzir, my big "bro".

well, student life, he can't accompany me, *sigh*, but he did give me a lot of toughts to make it happens, but, it just don't. not in any way. Thanks to you too Munzir! you try your best though.

next, my thought came across Ajim, my last-sem-Arabic-class-mate, but i dont have his number, so i contacted his friend, which is also a friend of mine, Saddam.

Oh , too bad, Ajim was with Saddam at Saddam's bro's house, hurm, THEN the plan kinda have to stick to where "i must go back alone" , so sad :(

a big adventure's coming! it's the day! waking up at noon, [hehe, bagos tol anak dare neh] then, get moving at 2 pm. got a text from Saddam, seems like Ajim is present in CFS by noon, too bad, they have to go to the Jumaat prayer, Aaaah! screw them, i can survive! -- i think..

then, the journey soon begin, we travel by bus to KL central, and the bus is sooo SUCKS!

*ehem3* setibe nye kami di KL central, aku n mira rancang nak gi TS, so we wanna put the luggages in the thingy, alaa, yg letak brg tuh, hehe, but then, we cancel our "trip" to the TS because we're running out of time, sape suroh bgun kol doplas? HOH!

bajet2, lepas anta mira kat Putra, trus nak balik uia, dlm kol 6, tanak la lewat2, i don't want to travel back, ALONE, in the night, NO WAAY!

tup2, sampai kat Putra pon dah kol 6, nak teman mira beli sweater lagi, bla bla bla, then, dan dan plak, time tuh, jumpe kawan chat mira, mikail, borak2, ajak dy pegi The Mall jap, bla bla bla, tup tup! dah dekat kol 7, aaa, kalot nye aku nak nek KTM seko2...sampai terlepas 1st trip, kes aku tgk sume tanak naek, aku pon tak naek ah, HAHA.

2nd trip aku naek, then, dpt msg dr Saddam, ajak aku pegi TS, kes aku ckp aku nak gi TS, but tak jadi, aku refuse. TAPI, kalo die nak temankan aku balik UIA, Then aku agree.

Mule2 dy offer nak temankan aku balik sampai KL central, HELLO! that's not enough! HOH! then, aku tegaskan deal aku disaat battery phone aku low amat, then, dy pon deal, katenye "ces...OKAIP! haha"

then, aku sempat reply, "Siyes?" but then, phone aku kong. aku sampai je kat KL Central,aku trus pegi charge phone aku, dr kol 7 sampai kol 7.23, aku bru dpt msg dr dy, tanye aku, "ko kat ner?"

aku ckp la aku kat KL Central, "ko nak soh aku dtg ke tak neh?"

then, rase macam dicuah minyak petrol then dilempar kedalam burning house lepas dpt msg dy "aku sje jew la.."

ADESSH! harapan aku nak balik berteman , HANCUS! dgn selamber wal derk je aku reply "BODOH"

enough of that, let's continue the journey, aku dgn marah nye, aku pegi beli tiket lrt, then, tup tup, salah naek train, HAHA, sepatotnye ke arah universiry ah, aku pegi naek yg nak ke CM nye, HAHA, then aku pon turon lah kat CM, nek train satu lagi, haha, JGN WAT AKU MARAH! sume mende tak jadi!

sesampai je aku kat lrt univ, aku nek taxi, tringat plak crite budak yg kene offer ngan apek taxi bawak balik umah apek tuh, issh, meremang bulu rome aku, tapi, aku wat berani je la, kalo aku rase org tuh bawak aku ke jln lain, aku terjun je dr taxi tuh, HAHA

naseb baik pakcik Taxi tuh baik, fewwwwh!

sampai lah aku kat UIA tak berteman, see, i can do it!!! hoho! i survive! SCREW THEM ALL! errm... maybe it meant to only one person, the others, thanks for those thoughts, HOHO!

ni baru 1 TROUBLE, here comes next trouble, in the next POST! oohohohoho,

TAKE A BREAK WITH KITKAT

;)

DISEBABKAN DINDING HIJO..

event nih, bru je belaku tadi, the exact 10 mins before i'm here jotting it down..

here's the story begin :

situation : outside the house, talking to my mom, whom about to go out somewhere, and asking me to bring her a glass of water, [so i did bring her that, nice huh?]

had me looking at the new painted wall, and said :-

me : i'd better be inside the house, so i won't see what's colour is on the outside, do you really wanna pick this colour?

mom : nope, i prefer the inside colour to be outside, but, it's okay.. in 10 years time, there would be a lot of wedding will be held, and after that time, we'll paint it differently..

me : a lot of wedding? whom's?

mom : yeah, in 10 years time, all my children will get married, the 10 years time is like, wedding years, soon, you, kakcik, Along will get married, and all the themes should be green, :D GREAT

me : me? married? in 10 years? na'ah, no way..

dad : you must get married la, takkan la nak duduk ngan abah je sampai tue..

me : nnt sape nak jage abah? hehe, biar lah nuyu duduk ngan abah, hehe, jage abah, okay? ;)

xxxxxx

well, the last part is really not the main point, hehe, but i did say that, hoho

anyway, it got me thinking, 10 years time?

well, me too -- thinking that , i will get married in that period, somewhere in 5 years from now, weee..! the more i think, the more excited i'd be. hehe

well, let's shorten the years, 5 years time, by that time, i would be, like, 24-25, the ideal age for woman to get married, hehe

somehow, the most excited thing to think is that, in 5 years time, i will fall in love with someone, and the someone LOVES me very much, enough to marry me, and makes me the lawfully wedded wife, makes me the HALAL for him ,and wanna spend the rest of his life with me.. owwww, so sweeet~ :D

i just don't see the current guy i have ever known is the ones, it's like, i kinda feel like, i , soon will be meeting him, oh my future husband! where are you?

to be negatively thinking, i just can't trust men now, sorry, it's nice to imagine how it would be, to have someone to love you, care about you, n will marry you , but, it just that, i never had someone, who love me so much to make me feel like that,--- oh, that's why i said the guys that i know is not the one... i see.. :P

someone who loves me very much? it sound ridiculous! do that someone ever exist? I HOPE SO!

SOMEONE WHO TRULY LOVES ME?

*sorry2, i need to repeat that to make sense, haha*

okay, now i'm blushing... ('_'~)

gtg!

btw ... it's SOMEONE, not SAMEON!